I saw things, which I couldn’t even imagine before. I experienced feelings, which I can hardly describe and none of any TV documents can actually give you.
Yes. This was my idea of how I'm gonna spent my days after my arrival to Thailand. I thought that the world is mine. That everything is great. And also that nothing bad can happen to me.Well, actually, it did.
Lesson #1 – Law of attraction works
Before I left, I was aware I have knowledge only of a little piece of what is happening in the whole world. How the world itself exactly is. But experience that was and still is my plan.
First two days of travelling I spent in Malaysia, in the capital and largest city Kuala Lumpur.
I can’t even remember what my expectations were before I left home. All happened quite fast. But the last thing I would ever expect was that I would be shocked from the beginning itself.
My wish of discovering came true immediately. I saw things, which I couldn’t even imagine before. I experienced feelings, which I can hardly describe and none of any TV documents can actually give you. Neither in full HD!
Lesson #2 - Only when you see the things on your own, it leaves something in you
First shock – corporations in nature
What shocked me at first was the view before landing. Huge amounts of palm trees - almost infinity plantations. Not those we lie down under on the beaches. But those we produce the palm oil from.
Later I found out that Malaysia is one of the biggest exporters. So it started to make sense. Well, nobody is genius and me neither :-)
Second shock – the irony of society
When leaving Kuala Lumpur, I thought nothing is impossible. The city - slowly turning into the next Dubai - showed me how unprincipled our society really is.
I am used to walk. So I walked until I appeared somewhere, where people were actually looking at me like what I was doing there.
I was standing on the street, where on the one side was a big shopping centre and on the other side, lots of shanties in mud with fences for chickens arround.
Third schock – anarchy on the road
If you have ever been angry, that nobody lets you cross the street when walking, believe me, it can be even worse. The only thing I could have an opportunity to see, that they accept here, is waiting at the traffic lights.
You have to run to cross the road. Motorbikes cut their ways by the sidewalks. No matter what. There were even a signs on the bus-stops, which says no entry to motorbikes. They ignore it anyway.
Maybe, all of those things are “normal” for the Eastern world. But is it correct? Well, I don’t think so.
Lesson #3 – Anything could happen to you, at anywhere and anytime
Next destination was Phuket in Thailand, where I wanted to spend 30 days. And I am still here these days.
Apart from discovering, on my „wish list“ was also to become stronger and wiser. Become bigger inspiration for the others. And literally after my arrival to Thailand, the law of attraction came again.
At 10:30 p.m. I was waiting for someone to pick me up from the airport to my co-working-living space. The guy - probably the same age as me - arrived. He arrived on scooter – which is kinda typical here. I wasn’t thinking about it so much, so I just put a helmet on and got up.
In about 10 minutes came impact. Some Asian dude on scooter - as reliable as everyone else in here - hit us. Than he drove off.
I can remember how I hobbled to the middle road island on the road similar to Czech highway. I can also remember the first thing which came up on my mind. It was my travel insurance, which I didn’t have, beacuse I „didn’t have time“ to arrange it, because I thought nothing can happen to me. I was so shocked and afraid, that in that time, I was almost able to get to my accommodation as fast as possible and treat it myself. Even though I had a big hole through in my leg.
It is hard to describe it all, but all I can remember is only my helplessness. I wasn’t able to access the hard shoulder. I just wanted to crawl to the other side of the road, where people were standing.
There were many cars and none of them stopped. At the end we managed the pavement. I seemed I'm gonna faint, than I drunk water and it got little better.
When situation cleared, I knew I am fucked up.
The helplessness didn’t get better, because only many Asians who didn’t speak English were standing around me. And obviously my driver, who was Russian and also knew almost nothing. But the fact that I don’t have the insurance he understood.
When I was in the hospital, I saw all in black. I felt sorry about everything, I was alone and I started to cry. And it last at least half an hour. The nurse even asked me if it hurts that much, but they gave me anesthetics, so I couldn‘t feel anything actually.
Around 12:30 a.m. I got to my bed, with 15 stitches in the leg and bruised hip, chest and shoulder. In the morning I found out my laptop is little bit bent from the impact. Luckily, it works.
Lesson #4 – Don’t rush on anything, everything has its own time
Call me whatever you want, but I stand against all kind of drugs - vaccination, pills etc. And no, I am not crazy. I made this decision because I believe it‘s right.
I can remember the moment when I was sitting in the wheelchair and the nurse asked me if I wanted pills. Firstly, they tried and wanted me to approve the tetanus vaccination. Then they also wanted to give me antibiotics and painkillers.
During sewing stitches, they threaten me with an infection and so on. My decision wasn’t easy, but at the end I refused it all.
Maybe more things have their own role in this sticky situation. But after 4 days – even though I am not a doctor – it didn’t seem the wound is healing well and the fear beat me. Finally I took the antibiotics. One of the reasons was also the fact that the hospital staff couldn’t speak English properly.
The wave full of emotions came. I was closed at the toilet and I was crying again. I think I also cried for those things I should cry for a long time ago, but I kept them inside. So at the end, I was happy. I made another progress.
Lesson #5 - Every cloud has a silver lining
When I look back in time, I had to deal with many important decisions for me. And I regret none of them. And next time, I’ll decide the same.
Now I know I must treat myself better and that anything could really happen. Anywhere and anytime.
And that we can’t rush anything. This time I haven’t done it without pills. But next time, I’ll cope with it better because now I know what to do better.
Although my first month of travelling was such a shame, I don’t regret anything. It taught me a lot. I am wiser and I’ll be stronger soon, too. I have wished for it, so now it came.
I have to rest for now and on the 7th of February I am going to Bali.
And I am looking forward to everything that life throws my way.
I would appreciate if you contact me at firstname.lastname@example.org for any mistakes in my english. I will send you my love and quote your name.
Love and thanks to:
Tereza Weichslova (translation help)
Melissa Joy Aimee Hudson (corrections)